DIGITAL MEMORIES!!!!

hii there!!
Have you ever wondered, that "Loss and Memories" are two words which so are very much related to each other. I know, now you must be wondering, why have i associated memories with loss?? can't memories be associated with happiness....... well!! ofcourse they can be... but then this article is only dedicated to the "lost memories".

People die everyday and lose their loved ones.... mothers loose their boyz in war, fathers loose their brothers in bomb blasts... friends loose their friends in car accidents, a small kid may loose its pet....... and the loss story continues.......what remains after that is just old memories which haunt u day and night..........................and guess what i have lost.......

MY DIGI CAMERA..... !!!boo!boo!

now please do not make faces............

cmon.... i know the above paragraph.... was extremely emotional.......and u guyz were expecting some emotional masala..........
but then guyz.... the cam did matter to me.......and now what remains is just old memories which are stored inside my laptop and haunt me day and night.........
but then i too have taken precautions...........u must be wondering how....
well.........

firstly i made it a point to msg everyone in my group abt this loss newz coz its not only a loss to me, its a loss for my whole group......{please don laugh}.... everytime we guyz went out... the camera was a part of us.........and we enjoyed clicking pics and making videos.......so i wanted everyone to brood with me........... thanx to them they were pretty much supportive.........

......... secondly i have changed my desktop to some stupid flower picture because if i see myself on the desktop, i'l feel miserable...............it'l make me remember of my camera more..........

.............thirdly i have stopped clicking on picasa.......it used to be my favorite passtime..u know...........changing the look of my pics ....may be to sepia sometimes, or black and white.... and then uploading them on orkut and then reading the comments of my friends............infact u guyz wont believe........when i was in mumbai last 2 months... my rommates asked me to click their pics.... well i did and they turned out to be amazing to the extent that their friends were asking them whether they got their portfolio done???.....

My cam had those amazing qualities... dad had bought it from dubai and i started using it in those dayz when digi's were pretty costly and everyone dint own one.......even till today i enjoyed showing of my possession and teasing my friends coz they din have one...., it was sleek, stylish and clicked some amazing pics........

shhhh!! a secret....... so many times i locked my room and clicked my own pics..........no i am not self obsessed but then i love being clicked and moreover ppl say (even i know)...tht i am photogenic...... and my mr.special clicks some amazing pics.......so we often fooled around by saying that in future we would open a photo business ......... now that the cam has gone......... our dreams r also shattered......... sob!! sob!!

..............the cam was with me since my law days....and now....... memories and memories all's thats left.........

but then while writing this blog a tot just crossed my mind.......this is a loss which can be replaced....... what about the losses of loved ones............?????????
RAM NAAMM SATYA HAI.....
RAM NAAM SATYA HAI......
RAM NAAM SATYA HAI.....
mere digi cam ki aatma ko shaanti mile.......... CANON, IXUS 360, 6 megapixel........

Princess getting confident...................

........... Its the month of october 2007 and i am back home for Durga Pujas and trust me , coming back to a familiar smell is a great feeling.......

I guess by now u must have understood that i am a hosteller...........naaah!!! wait a second..... lets rewind the last line........
Now read the line....... with those big eyes....also add a surprise touch to your tone, crinkle the nose and the forehead and emphasise on the word "HOSTELLER" ..........
Did u read it????? hope u did????

Yup!! i had never imagined that i would have to stay in a hostel and pursue my double postgraduation.......(i know...now u must be wondering why is she studying so much????........ forget it!!!!....continue reading the blog plz).............coz the last time when i went to a hostel..i was back within a month......... but this time i got FEVIstuck and i am happy that i took this decision.....

Hostel life teaches the definition of confidence.......it makes u realise the importance of lot of things in life...............more importantly one learns to adjust, care, share and help .....imagine 3 girls in one room!!!!!!!..............washing clothes, managing ur finances, travelling alone, hating the hostel warden, talking to ur boyfriend for hours which u cudnt do at home are some aspects..........
again u learn to smile in small situations of life...... i still remember..... we were leaving for our respective homes on 17th oct.....n so on 1st oct we all celebrated by treating ourselves to the most expensive pastry as coz the most awaited month had atlast arrived.............

Shouting and celebrating b'dayz, giving b'day bums, contributing and sharing all the expenses, finding the terrace and staircases of the hostel filled up with girlz after 11pm buzy talking to their boyfriends, watching tv together, fighting with hostel warden, standing up for each others rights........god!!! moments, moments and moments..............

and how can i forget the sense of independence........... thats the best part........ especially if ur a hosteller in the northern part of india......... god!!! ur life rocks.........


But then there r some disgusting parts too......... god!! can u imagine sharing undergarments...... guess what ive seen galz do this........ then there r galz who don't wash their bedsheets for months........wonder!!.....how come they don't suffer from skin diseases.......???

and last but not the least..........bitching!!!! i am sure all girlz would agree!!!!every night the bitching sessions in every room of the hostel.................."god!!did u see her today...what was she wearing????sab kuch dikh raha tha...."......," have u seen the way she walks.....ufff!! nazuk kali...".....and the spicy session continues.....................hehehehehehe!!!!!

There r pros and cons of everything.......and i would suggest that in a lifetime.....one shud definitely taste the experiences of a hostel life......... trust me!!! it rocks!!!................

Nick- Names!!!!

hii there!!
was actually sitting idle.....so thot of doing something productive.....i guess even orkutting is pretty productive.....ya!!apart from getting in touch with old buddies.......... u actually get to see some handsome guyz, and guess what???????? .....shhhhhh!!!!!!!!they actually, don't realise that i visited their profile......(yup!!that option is active), also some snooping..... trying to find out who did your boyfriend scrapped around while u were sleeping and dreaming about him ........ha!! ha!!
okay i realise............i am deviating away from my main topic.......... but then i also realise that orkutting has got into our blood...... we eat , sleep orkut, no wonder its one of the contenders of the MTV youth icon awards...... (any idea abt the results guyz????????)......... jai baba orkut!!!!
ya!!........ so where was i????? yup!! the nick-names

As i said before, was ,sitting absolutely idle and was looking at the ceiling.... when a thought came in my mind that why did i name myself...... SUPI.......??????? OR was it someone else who named..................oh ya!! just incase if u don't know...... my name is SUPARNA........ which if u break it into two halves..... means....(SU) BEAUTIFUL (PARNA) LEAF ...... sweet name with a beautiful meaning, isn't it??

Now the question arises that........ what does exactly the word nickname mean ........ looked into the webster pocket dictionary........ and it states -
1) its a diminutive as Tom for Thomas, 2 ) a descriptive or facetious name given to a person, place or a thing in derision or affection....
now again i had no idea about the meaning of the word DERISION..... and guess what the webster pocket dictionary states the meaning....... its .....AN ACT OF RIDICULE, SCORN.......

god!!!!?????? an act of ridicule......... ????? ya!! hope u can understand...... i got kinda scared reading the meaning......

so i checked the dictionary again if i cud find the meaning of the word SUPI.... my nick name....... and guess what.....
there seems to be no word as such........ also checked the MERRIAM - WEBSTER ONLINE SEARCH and the ENCYCLOPEDIA BRITANNICA SEARCH......... aahuh!!! bad luck no meaning........ :-(
and so after doing this research a thought just popped up in my mind........ !! and thats................

when we come out of our mamma's tummy....... we all r given names...... one good name which the whole world will know and also will be displayed on our certificates , voter id cards, passports.... etc.......

another name which our mum and dad will know and most importantly.....actually will not mean anything.............in some cases it may mean...... but then i guess thats rare......... atleast in the bengali culture...............and which may be something like toy, babli, shona, sonu, monu, goja...........and the meaningless list continues............
ohh!! ya!! one more thing...... these names will only echo inside the corridors of our houses.........ha!! ha!! coz........of their totally and absolutely meaningless funny nature.......... probably......... out here we get scared..... coz we do not want to be ridiculed by friends with these names.....................isn't it???????/ think about it......................................


and finally another name would be given by our friends....... and in my case its SUPI....... and guess what???? now there r sub - names to the name SUPI............... the list goes like.....
SUPZZ, SU, SOUP, SOUPY, SNOOPY, SOUP PI, SUPAI and the most stupid and kinda hillarious one.......... i actually hate it.........
SU.... SU...PI...PI!!!!!

this was discovered by my good friend paridhi .... while i was pursuing my degree in law....... (will kill u ;-) someday for this, buddy!!!!)

now the question arises that inspite of having one beautiful, meaningful name why do we need such nick-names....... infact why do we need such...................... meaningless, ridiculous, funny, nicknames????????
well!! i guess.......i can think of some reasons.........
one...... may be coz.........people may find a seven letter word tooooooooooo long to pronounce....... (as in my case).
OR in the case of actress TABU........ya!! guyz and galz!! just for ur knowledge............ her real name is Tabasuum...........

secondly..... i guess........ today nick-names r a fashion statement....... probably it sounds hep and cool and again...... probably its easy to pronounce........

thirdly...... i feel..... its just a way of showing ones affection towards you..........
but then why by changing the whole name...infact the meaning too and then sounding it to be kinda funny and ridiculous......... and then on top........ sometimes teasing with it too..........

ha!! ha!! whatever may the reason be............ i guess its kinda nice and a lil upsetting too......... i do like it when people call me with my nick-name........
but then the worse and upsetting part is............... some of my friends do not recognise me....... if i am referred as SUPARNA........... and u know what.......... that actually, actually ,actually........... upsets me!!!!!


take care:-)